Today is the first full day without Pristiq (SNRI) and onto Prozac (SSRI.) I do not advocate for these types of drugs; I think of them as a necessary evil for necessary cases. Sometimes intervention is needed in the same way I need medication for my thyroid disorder. I suspect my thyroid as the main culprit for my other brain medication supplementations; I will never truly know the answer.
I awoke with mild anxiety and a bit of a foggy feeling, much like the weather today – grey. I am thankful that my health problems are not more severe and they are manageable. I used Prozac several years before and then it stopped working. At the time I was in college and grad school; on my way to a Ph.D. I never thought I would get that far, that is, it was not a grand plan for my life, it just sort of worked out that way. After my youngest child was hit by a car, I reevaluated my direction and suddenly felt lost – my priorities changed in an instant.
Most of my family members did not finish high school and I was the first to graduate college. I come from a broken family of six children; although my siblings have a different father. I suspect many in my extended family have anxiety/OCD related problems that have gone untreated. Perhaps their difficulties are also exasperated by Hashimotos thyroid which is an inherited disease.
I have a good husband and a stable life; I own a home and my own car. These may be small things to many people but I know there are numerous people with brain illnesses who struggle to maintain basic things like housing, employment and transportation.
I have two children who are nearing the point of being on their own and I worry every second that I screwed them up in some way (even though they assure me I have not.) I have immense mommy guilt that I may have passed these disorders onto them. I sometimes wonder if I would have had children if I knew of my family history. Then I feel guiltier for thinking it. Mommy guilt sucks.
In order to help the next generations of my family I have gathered health data to share with them. I printed out anonymous questionnaires for family gatherings/reunions; compiled the data (simpler than it may seem.) We now know our full family mental/medical history that may have otherwise been lost. Perhaps it will help future generations and their children make informed decisions.
FAMILY HISTORY TOOLS
Pediatric Family History Tools:
- American Academy of Pediatrics – Committee on Genetics Pediatric Genetic Screening Questionnaire
- Family History Questionnaire (developed by a primary care practice)
- Family History Questionnaire Grid
- Follow-Up Family History Questions
Adult Family History Tools
- American Medical Association’s Adult Family History Form
- March of Dimes—Preconception/Prenatal Family Health History Questionnaire
- U.S. Surgeon General
Do you know your family history?
Family Medical History Questionnaires (printouts)